Whats up guys, heck where do I go with this other than being honest. How many of you out there have felt the urge not to give up, but the urge to just I dunno self implode haha. No seriously, this last year has been wild welcomed a new member to the family at the start of the year and said goodbye to one alil over half way through.

I missed alot of work this year, I choose to stay out with the baby 7 weeks due to my wife being in her last semester of college. I prayed about it and its kinda amazing how it worked out so she could finish and obtain her degree. Spent a few days with my dad while he was himself then a week when he died. Trails and tribs have left me out I dunno probley 3 months this year right at it. With that being said I have missed out on at least 8-10 chances of promotions. To promote within the department I work you must take a placement exam, the first exam I had to turn in early(crappy story) left 40% of it unfinished. The 2nd chance I had my father passed the night before the exam I missed that one.

Where is it you grab hold of when you want to let go? I mean don't get me wrong here im not throwing a rope around a ceiling beam or anything. I just keep asking myself, I have always waited for the signs, goods, bads from God. I am a believer always have been, but we all know God can't live our lives for us we have to strive such as many of you on this site have to get where/what you have. I want to tighten down and rally myself to get past this last year. I just don't know if I still have the "give a poop" for the job anymore, I want more I want different but with this economy how can anyone get what they want. I dunno if this is a rant or a series of questions. Either way it kinda feels good to air it out.

 

well some of that ony you can answer...


as far as spending time with your dad and child, that's time that you had the chance to take and that's time you will never have the opportunity to get back, you can always hit up an advancement test in the future

 

Hang in there. Things will improve. It was early when I posted the verse.

 

Over the last 4 years of my life i have had many of hte same feelings you express.
Not the same thing and i'm sure we are not teh same age, but a feeling kinda of hopelessness. Not knowing what to do sort of. I missed out on a couple years of my life and things still won't ever be the exact same for me. I've been closer to death than most, relearned basic functions(walk, talk, etc.) family changes, too much to list and i'm just not the same person i was before and it messes with my head. I try to stay positive and i know God has a plan for everything. I take one day at a time....goodluck to ya.

 

Life is about change. Nothing ever stays the same. You have to embrace the future, and accept that it will be different tomorrow, and the next day.

If life keeps throwing curve *****, the most important thing is, "You learn how to hit curve *****".

I have had to give up most of the things I enjoyed in the past, but I'm finding, that there are other things to enjoy. If my life had not turned out the way it has, I wouldn't have learned what I now know.

I'm sorry about your Father Swiftly, and congratulations on the new addition.

 

My devotional this morning was titled "Overwhelmed" here is the scripture to reference:Isaih 41:10 and Psalm 138:3...hope this helps.

 

Yes I often find much pleasure and forget pain when I creep through the pages of the Bible. Also thanks for everyones kind words, Tumba you spoke of strong words that I absorbed rather well .

Off-road it sounds like our paths are different, much different my pain isn't physical which would be harsh. I wish the best for you man, mtn on a much different note and this will probley correspond with a few other threads devoting myself to something would be a great help. I don't like riding bikes, but I think if I could find something healthy to do it would greatly help my wife and I to better our lives.

 

see you're already looking at the positive side

 

 

to me god has nothing to do with it.

you made 3 choices that put your where you are.

your wife became pregnent while going to college. i am sure it is a beautiful baby but somehting had to give and it sounds like you income and job did.

second, in this economy you should have gone to work. her degree might pay off in the future but your job pays the bills now.

3rd this is tough but putting your dad in front of your family and job is a mistake. I love my dad and we have had great times but if he thought that me putting him in front of that baby and therefore losing money he would rip my but. As a father i would never expect my children to put me in front of their family. hopefully whne i go i have had a good life with no regrets, its the new families turn.

life is tough and lots of us had a bad year, IMO going to work is the best medicine. having problems is bad but having problem and no income is worse.

dude, go to work, let your boss know that it has been a tough year but your new focus is on providing for your family and therefore you are dedicated to stepping it up at work.

i wish you the best, but it is time to man up and realize its up to you and no one else

 

Some things are important. Some are not. I think I may have missed the exam myself.

 

yall wanna hear somethin messed up?

try having your mom missing on new years eve (2010), then coming back for you to find out that shes seeing this sorry SOB that she use to see when you were a little kid, that youve really forgotten about since its been so long

i mean this guy use to stalk her and everything now WTF is up with her looking him up or whatever the case is?

oh well, doesnt matter, she can forgive this guy all she wants but facts are i got plenty sleepness nights in as a kid worrying about what this douche is gonna do... and now that im more than big enough to royally fk him up i intend on doing just that when the time is right and i get the chance

 

all in how you look at at.

sounds like up to this point he had taken off for the baby, missed out several times on the promotion because of other things, spent a week ahead of time with his dad ( i am guessing a long term, knew it was coming, still hard) .

assuming he was prepped and ready for the test it could have been a good heeling, grow up moment to go in an smoke the test and say "that was for you dad, you raised a man"

sound like god has presented 8 to 10 chances for advancement. how many more prayers and chances are needed?

Is god listening? looks to me like he is
you have a new healthy baby (most import and a call to arms)
you still has a job after missing 1/4 of the year
your wife has a new college degree
you had a chance to make things right and say goodbye to dad. (this is hugh)
he gave you 8 to 10 chances for advancement.

 

Hey -- 2009 sucked for me as well -- GOOD RIDDANCE!!!

2010 has GOT to be better -- bring it on!!!

 

SS- Some I agree with, some I don't. (posts) It took too much of my Christian life to come to come to the point in my life that I realized as much as I was concerned about the challenges (I refuse to call them problems) in my life (many), that He was even more concerned. His ways are not my ways and His thoughts are not my thoughts. It has been quite a few years since I came to the point that that I realized I could trust Him COMPLETELY, and live in that peace, not knowing what was ahead. I believe that's called faith, comes from a lifetime of observing Him not make a single mistake, no matter what my eyes saw or mind thought. He has been good beyond measure, and will continue to be. Rest in that knowledge. He owed me nothing and has given me so much! Even the breath in my lungs. God Bless!