I just posted this on myspace for all my friends to read, i wanted to share with it you as well. Any comments suggestions are always welcomed.


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Alright, time for me to get on my soap box, its ok this will be over quick and you can forget about it right after you read it but its something i want to say.

Do you honestly know how much money you spend a week on alcohol? Good lord im shocked at my bank account right now. Since my DUI in September ive been trying to limit myself on how many times during the week i go out and get ****ing hammered. living one week to the next hoping my paycheck will be enough to "squeek" by on my bills and leave me enough money to get drunk a couple times a week. And now, oh man, i can damn near do anything i've ever wanted. I dont know where to spend it first. I know it wont be in a bar.

Its one hell of a rut to be stuck in, coming up with reasons and excuse's for going out 3, maybe even 4 or 5 times a week. Now its only once a week that i will visit a bar and spend money. Drinking and driving became a regular part of my daily activities. Never got caught or busted, big deal right? Thats fine, and i hope none of you ever do!!! However, its all about what you spend, alot of money. If i spent an average of 4 nights a week at the bar, you can be willing to bet that i wasnt leaving sober hardly any of those times. Im talking 40-60 bucks easy, if not 80.

When i tell people that i got a DUI, alot of them reply "aww man that must really suck" or "sucks to be you".... well, not really. I guess i just wanted to get this off my chest that this DUI is probably the best thing that ever happened to me. I was an alcoholic. 26 years old and depended on alcohol to get me through the day. Its what i looked forward to. Unreal.

ok, i've said my peace, im not trying to tell you to do "this" or "that", im only telling you that you could be so better off without spending that money, just because its fun. Do you know that was my only reason for going out to the bar sometimes, was because that "i have fun"..... guess what, it wasnt worth it.

idk. thanks for reading, have a nice day. and thanks for letting me vent to all my myspace friends.

 

Now if only you can kick the habit of smoking crack. Jk, great job on your accomplishment, I myself don't drink.

 

I drink... but not at bars... I do all my drinking at my place only by myself.

It's lonely... but I know nothing will happen.

 

This summer I was spending more than $1500 on booze a month and thats just the booze I had records. I go on HUGE benders in the summer when I am working, not so much when school is back in

 

Making a positive out of a negative is always a good thing

Once I bought my house and built my garage, the bar scene went away. That was 7.5 yrs ago. However, I think I drink more now since I don't have to drive!!!!!

 

reminds me of last year during the Wisconsin Badger football season a friend and I spent 3k in 3 months a piece.

talk about some wild nights. some great memories, but holy cow was it ever stupid.

 

If you can't afford to drink get a better paying job.

 

Are you a serial murderer/rapist too?

 

I'm alone tonight and about ready to knock a few back myself.

 

edited for my own drunken sake.

 

I raped my F150 last night... but tables turned, and it raped me back by running me over.

Case in point... don't try raping something that weights 6000 lbs.

Not to mention there are some sharp edges and pinch-points.





But no... I just drink at home because I won't get into trouble that way. Unless I play with a chainsaw or something...

 

Drop in on an AA meeting.

You still are. Once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic. AA can help you stop drinking, but you have the sickness for the rest of your life.

 

x2

 

honestly, if you want to talk about alcoholics...

at one point in my life, i spent roughly 2500-4000 dollars a month on going out! played golf 4-5 days a week, and you know i wasnt sober playing that much golf! and eventually that just became living by myself, drinking a bottle (or more) of scotch a night. if i didnt, i couldnt sleep, or function the ext day. unlike those before me have said, i didn't hope to squeak by... the only reason i went to work was to get my paycheck so i could go to the liquor store. "to hell with my bills" and what not i said. the only reason i got up in the morning was to get messed up at night.

i still drink from time to time, but i am able to control myself. people on this site, and others that i am a member of joke all the time about being an "alcoholic", but truth be told, it really isnt a joke. i lost the two most important things in my life because of this, and i will never forget that. that is what keeps me close to in line today.

 

I'm slowly getting a handle on my drinking now. My problem is not stopping myself when I know I should.

I was doing good for a couple weeks, but I got wasted last night.. *sigh*

I don't drink alot unless I go out to bars... so I just have to REALLY limit my bar time to help myself.