It's funny the loss you feel when leaving the military. I've got 2 weeks til my terminal leave kicks in and I'm on my way back home to Arlington TX. I had just returned from the sand box during April and while I was home on leave I tested with the Dallas PD. I've been pumped ever since knowing that my new civilian life seemed to be falling into place. Now with 2 weeks to my buddies are heading back into the box and I'm staying behind. You try and pass on as much good training/experiences you can but I kinda feel guilty for not going back with them. I guess that comes with the territory of being an NCO and actually caring about your subordinates. My wife just took a job in Dallas and dreads the thought of be even joining the reserves when I get situated. I do understand her wanting me out, the worries and me being home for less than a year out of the past 3 but unless you've been there you'll never understand.