I'm so sorry to hear about your Uncle. I am praying for him too & all the family. Remember everyone is here for you if you need us.
It' coming up on 1 yr since my Aunt/Godmother in NY passed away. She was buried on my 50th birthday so needless to say, I didn't celebrate. After her burial I drove back home to Buffalo & thought of all the good times we'd had as a family. It actually helped a lot! I think about her a lot too & she'll always be with me. I'd also managed to talk to her just 4 days before she died & told her I loved her. I'm thankful I had that opportunity. If you get this in time be sure to tell your Uncle how you feel about him. It will do you both a world of good.
I don't know how to lighten things up except to say that this year turning 51 won't hurt as much since I never really turned 50!?! Skipping that day was a blessing in disguise as I'd DREADED saying "I'm 50" when I act/feel 18!
Again - we're here for you & I'm praying for everyone. God Bless.